Saturday, June 14, 2008

Restless Nights

Since my friend's mother has passed, I have been having a difficult time sleeping at nights. What has been on my mind is that it has really been hitting home that my parents and my husband's parents are failing and it is just a matter of time before something happens. Obviously, I have known this all along but lately it is becoming more of a reality.

I just had a conversation with my mom and she told me that she had to go to an internist because she was having major bowel issues. She also has dropped a lot of weight and she told me that she is just skin and bones. My father has been diagnosed with pulmonary fibrosis which is a progressive lung disease that usually results in death within a few years. He is on heavy duty drugs and is feeling great but the doctors are telling him that the x-rays are not showing the progress he is feeling.

I know that this is just life and this is what happens to everyone. However, getting married and having kids was really a joyful time, the rest of it, getting older and watching your parents go downhill has been a difficult journey and I don't know how people deal with that.

I guess one has to hope for the best, prepare for the worst and have a lot of faith that no matter what happens, things will work out somehow in the end.

2 comments:

BetteJo said...

My dad passed a few years back, and my mom just turned 80. She has COPD, finally doesn't smoke anymore. She's skin and bones and thinks chocolate is a legitimate food group. It's tough talking to her sometimes because she jumps around a lot in her thought processes - and doesn't understand when I don't know what she's talking about.
It comes in different forms but aging always comes.

palette48 said...

I know and it's difficult to see your parents start to go downhill. My mom is getting forgetful and her hearing is bad even with hearing aids.

They also live so far away too and that makes it difficult. I would like to help take care of them when the time comes but they said they don't want that and will not move closer.

Getting old is tough!